20 min.

This is funny. I gave myself a quickie last night. I filmed myself painting these flowers with the intention of speeding up the video and posting it as a blog. The trick was the camera only records for 20 minutes. This is what I came up with. I haven't done any free sketchy painting type things in a while. With the commissions there is such a thought process and space for discovery and unfolding. 

With only 20 minutes I was able to let all of that go. I started with the thought that I wanted to have a finished painting at the end of the video. That was my only rule. There was no need to fret and worry about anything. I just went for it. It was so freeing and fun. It actually came out okay enough and I gave it to my neighbor since the flowers were from her garden. 

Today I wanted to upload the video. I just spent the past 2.5 hours editing the video and trying to figure out how to speed it up. Don't laugh tech people, I'm learning all of this stuff as I go. And after all of this process and learning with such a specific goal in mind, guess what I have? The picture of the painting that only took 20 minutes. 

I was spending way too much energy trying to make this idea of mine work. I just kept trying to do the same thing over and over even though it was not working. I had such a specific and narrow outcome planned and that made it impossible for any space to hold other possibilities. During the learning curves of our lives we have to be flexible. We have to stop trying to shove the square peg into the round hole. Sometimes you just have a peg in one hand and a hole in the other.

Look how bright and happy 20 minutes can be in that intention. Can you imagine what it would look like in a year?